♥ #1 the beginning

again .

for a very long time , i thought that i was ready to give up blogging altogether , that maybe i could finally let go . all i wanted to be was nothing, to blend in and disappear , and not stick out like a sore thumb . i love writing ; always has and always will , and so i guess it was a pity that for a period in time , i lost all will and strength to write , simply because it was my own words that made me depressed .

and so i walked away from it all .

i stopped listening to songs that made me sad , stopped talking altogether to people who had the heart to break mine , stopped looking at things that made me unhappy. and then i withdrew deeper and deeper into my shell , until one day i could no longer contain anything more and just decided to drop blogging too . i was merely running away from the things that hurt me . but then now it's different . i want to be a braver person . i want to write , i want to take control of me . i kept pushing the idea of blogging to the back of my head every time it surfaced , citing excuses that i myself knew was not true , simply because i was not brave enough to man up to myself . when i sat down and really thought of a name , it came to me instantly .

im slowly picking up the pieces from where i left . :)