These are everything I will not eat. From now until....until indefinitely.
I just love torturing myself like this.
And speaking of which , I swore I'll bake during the holidays but I still have yet to , and a week have came and passed just like that. Actually I dont even know why I bake. I'm quite odd in the sense that I dont eat the shit I bake. I give them all away to my friends. It's terrifying , really , once you know how much sugar and butter and god knows what pork lard they have in the chocolate chunks that go into the damn cake. Which is not even very big to begin with , nor is the taste extremely rewarding. This is the thing about baking. I spend so much money on it , always so anal on using the best ingredients , spend hours and hours in the kitchen baking and then cleaning up....and I dont even eat my product. It's a waste of time and I'm a little mental perhaps.
I really really wanted to bake a chocolate pie tomorrow though but i guess I shall push that back until ...until I'm ready to bake and not be tempted by hunger at all. It's gonna be tough , going back to the whole dieting thing. And I kinda miss the smiles on my friends' faces when I tell them I bake those brownies. But everything will have to wait.
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